Tuesday, 17 November 2015

And she is completely different today.

She didn't want to find herself, She wanted to get away, She wanted to be someone else, she wanted to be someone she is not.

Whatever she was, it doesn't matter anymore, whatever she is now, no one will ever know, and who is she going to be, is someone she is not.

She ran far away,

and every time she talks to someone, whether it was a security guard, a lady in the train or a guy to ask for direction she spoke in different tone of voices, different accents, and different ways.

She was very polite, cute and clueless to the security guard, very lovely and independent to the lady, and very strong, smart, and passionate with the guy.
With each person she talked to, had to ask her questions, from where is she?, or what does she do in life?, how did she end up where ever she is?
She looked very mysteries to everybody, they all wanted to know more about her, she talked alot, she gave her opinion about everything, but you can see that sometimes her opinion doesn't match with some other opinions that she had before.  everyone loved the way she thinks, how she analyze people, and how she could tell you the story of your life the minute she meets you.
she could tell you how you feel about everything. she knows, she just knows, she can always feel you through your own eyes, she analyze the way you speak, the way you roll your eyes, where you put your hands, your legs, how you stand, everything. She is interested in what you do and what you like, she will help you follow your dreams whatever they are, she find your weakness points and try to make you feel good about them, she finds all your insecurities and work hard for you to accept them, and be secured about them.. people were her projects. And with each project she is a different person  with the same powers.
whats the mystery in those beautiful eyes of hers?

She never met a guy who didn't fell in love with her, or at least wanted to fall in love with her, she never went to an interview where they didn't want to hire her, and never met a smart ass who didn't hate her, just because they couldn't figure her out, but she couldn't decide to use her powers for good or for evil.

She raise her voice when she is angry but never shouts, she smiles when she's happy but doesn't laugh, she turns around when she is sad so you wont see her cry, she could hold her tears like a man and let them fall down on her cheeks when she wants to pretend she is weak.

She could dress pretty like Princess Diana, and the next day hot and sexy, she could dress gypsy and the next day nerdy, she could look Gothic, and the next day absolutely angelic.
Who was she and why?

She was a mystery, a mystery to herself as well. she wanted to become something. she wanted to become someone else.

with all her power she had insecurities, she had doubts, she had love that she wanted to give to someone, no one special, she wanted to spread her love everywhere, she never hated a soul, even the people that would hurt her the most, she would just forgive, she believes that time heals everything, she never held a grudge, but with all that, there is a devil behind this smile, she manipulated people and got everything that she wants, she controlled the world around her, and the minute that she feels she cant, tears roll of her cheeks, and that was one of her powers, somehow those tears could just give her all that she wants, or at least she would compromise for something that would make her feel better.

with time she started realizing her powers more and more and understanding those powers more, she started believing that the world revolves around her. and that she wants what she wants when she wants it, and if whatever she wants is not there she could use her powers for evil.

She never loved because of love, she fell in love for the sake of her powers to be used, or else it would turn into evil powers that are never good to be used.

She only falls in love to feed her ego, give love to someone,  and make them feel good about themselves.

She doesn't believe in love. she believes in kissing, hugging, and dancing, she loves gifts, she loves sparkling gifts, she loves to be surprised, she loves poems, she hated flowers, she hated chocolates, she hated lies, she hated him,

She broke a lot of hearts, but only to save another.

She is who she is, whoever she wants to be, she is different everyday,

everyday is a different person, only with the same powers.

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